Father, It’s the third week of a new year and I feel like a driver embarking on a long journey which is 2020…….I have a picture in my mind of myself in a car setting out at sunrise. I’m hopeful and at the same time scared, Father because I know that I will face challenges along the way. There are loads of things I would like to do like paint my house; meet someone special and basically enjoy my life in obedience to You. I guess I just have to look back on how You’ve brought me through my darkest days to know that You are with me always…..can I just add, please could it happen soon? Also, I’m thinking what can I do better this year that I failed on in the past……I can’t keep going round the same mountain year after year. In my darkest moments I feel I am being left behind, everyone seems to be having momentous occasions but I feel as if I'm far behind. Whilst I was writing this, this verse in Ecclesiastes 9:11 (NLT) came to mind – ‘I have observed something else under the sun. The fastest runner doesn’t always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn’t always win the battle. The wise sometimes go hungry, and the skilful are not necessarily wealthy. And those who are educated don’t always lead successful lives. It is all decided by chance, by being in the right place at the right time’.– which I take to mean that you will give me success when I depend on Your grace.